“The Death of Me” is a memoir on childhood trauma involving bullying, eating disorders, bipolar disorder, LGBT issues, and alcoholism. It also chronicles the three years from age fifteen to eighteen I spent in psychiatric hospitals for my eating disorder. This book targets a mature audience only. Definitely has some erotic scenes involving men and women (not at the same time) and some violent revenge fantasies, though nothing acted on. The violence was turned inward on myself. I know its an intense book for sure and not for everyone.
It’s being released on ibooks October 24, 2014. It would be great to have it reviewed by then but its ok if its after that as I know its so short notice. Its a short book, 100 pages. I can send it PDF format or as a word document.
You can learn more about on my blog I have here or on my author website: shawnnaburtthedeathofmeinfoupdates.com.
How I wish they could have understood me.
“To My Doctors”
Walls of cotton
The spiral downward
And scream of night
Away from every inch of light
You beckon me with a call
Before I really start to fall.
Surely you must know by now
The what, the when, the why, the how
There’s many things in life to miss
To never know a pain like this
The fire, the ice
Rabid violet and bluish nice
Surely you must understand
My bloody hot red demand
You’ve run the mile,
Or so I’m told
But what a pity,
To never know this thing you hold
By Shawnna Burt
Eating disorders are not just a disease of the mind. They are a disease of a culture-ours. If only we could let go of the idea that being too thin is happy, and love. That it matters. You cannot be successful if you are sick. Make a choice. At the end of my life I want to be remembered for more than ‘keeping my weight down.’
It takes 3500 calories to gain or lose a pound. I used to think if I ate a few bites of something fattening that it would immediately make me gain three pounds. I also used to think it was possible to lose 1.5 lbs. per day-trust me its not. If you weigh less the next day it was only water That you lost.